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31 Enero 2006
Del cascabel de tu risa
hasta la lagrima de tu sombra
pasa mi mente deprisa sin atender a razones
y pienso y siento sin conocimiento
sin ton ni son..con capricho.
Vagabundo de mis lagrimas
soñador de mis silencios
te siento y pienso constante
sin motivo ni argumento
anclado a mi sin-razón.
mientras ellos piensan en cualquier otra cosa
¡no hay derecho! ¡no, no y no!
vamos a darles el desalojo mental, nos va a salir más barato...
besos
Anda, pásate por allí y me explicas lo que has puesto.
La inspiración se ha apoderado de ti y encima condensada. Como encima es brillante hace una combinación perfecta. Enhorabuena!!
Un beso.
demasiadoas veces estamos / estoy "anclado a mi sin-razón"
"Pasa mi mente deprisa sin atender a razones y pienso y siento sin conocimiento sin ton ni son..con capricho"
Aiss...como me suena la situación.
Cuídate
"sin atender a razones",
"sin conocimiento",
"sin ton ni son",
"sin motivo ni argumento",
"sin-razón",
Y aun así. . . . . . . . . . es creible.
Se ha de sentir sin conocimiento para que el sentimiento sea más puro.
Un beso.
lo que pusiste en mi blog.
jajajajaja, me quieres revolucionar el blog.
Muy bun blog!!!
Cinnamon tagged and bagged me with this one and since I see it making the rounds, I'm going to get it sooner or later. So we might as well take care of it here:
List 8 traits about your perfect partner, and have to tell if they are male or female. Then tag 8 other people to do this.
Why only 8? What's so magical about that? I actually did a top 10 list on this on my old blog. But I'll go from scratch.
These would be female traits, although looking at Cinnamon’s list, some are simply universal.
1. Passion, as in sensual, intellectual, emotional and spiritual. Actually that's almost 4 things in one, isn't it? Okay, I stole and refined it from C's list.
2. Earthy. I'm weary of the "Ewww Factor" and someone trying to create a synthetically sterile environment. But this also has to do with how they relate to nature and natural things. Don't go all homeopathic and Wiccan on me, just recognize the natural order of things. Bugs, animals and plants have their place. Maybe a farm background would be beneficial. Yeah, someone who has been shit on and can still finish their chores before cleaning up.
3. Mastery of the Madonna/whore thing. Be respectful in public, but get freaky in the bedroom. Don't be afraid of being naked around me in private. Be a tease in public.
4. Physical appearance: non extreme and confident. Average suits me just fine. All women struggle with insecurities about their appearance one way or another and this is okay as long as she's confident with me and my assessment that she's #1 and God's gift to her gender. And to me. Save the shame talk for your neurotic girlfriends. I know you have moles, a pouch and thighs. I love them.
5. Acceptance. Nothing kills intimacy faster that a feeling that you will be criticized all the time. Or at least be willing to work with me on it where we can work with each other. This also means that bit in the serenity prayer: the courage of accepting things we can't change.
6. Perseverance and tenacity. Work through things instead of quitting and giving up. The first part of the serenity prayer: Lord, grant me the strength to change the things I can.
7. Kiss me deeply, passionately and often. And let me do the same.
8. Laugh with me.
While doing this, I actually came up with a companion meme of my own. Pay back is hell, isn't it Cinnamon?;-)
Okay, I'm supposed to bitch slap...er..tag 8 other people with this. Okay...
1. Dewdrop! Ooohh Dewwdrop! I'm sincerely interested in what you have to say on this. And I also know you will take it in the spirit its been given!LOL!
How about some different folks?
2. Summer Rose - Give us (and maybe CH) a clue as to what you're looking for.
3. So Gone - List the 8 and then let us know how BF stacks up.
4. Pretty Peanut - After that HNT, I'm sure I'm not the only guy who is wondering!
5. Cassee - Need to get to know you better!
The last three don't have blogs of their own (yet), so they can answer here or start their own blogs with this one:
6. Broccoli Eater
7. Emily
8. Rob - the token male!
The good news is that you 8 will be exempted from my next round, unless you want to get in on it.
D.
posted by Digger Jones @ 5:38 PM 7 comments
How goes the War on Debt?
01/02/2002
Saturday
I've been reading the comments to my last post with a lot of interest. And gratitude. My readers have minds of their own and I never have to worry about a lot of silly fawning. This is good. Plus a lot of you are very smart and thoughtful.
That's me fawning over you!LOL!
No update on the big fight except Elmo is fine and totally recovered. Arwyn and I are not fighting or anything. I got paid yesterday! wOOt! So did she and so we're both feeling better. At least until she's broke again.
I suppose Emily did the best job of laying out what Arwyn's thoughts probably were on the deal. In her mind, I was an ass about not giving her money to buy medicine for the boys right off. But, as was said by some else (sorry), it might not have been about the medicine at all. And then a bunch of you thinking I'm a wuss for giving in. I can't tell you exactly what Arwyn's thoughts are on this and if we can move on, I'm okay with that. But I can tell you mine.
Basically, I gave in because I didn't want to be depriving my children of medication, even if it wasn't a life threatening thing. Yes, Arwyn is notoriously irresponsible with money. But I can't allow my kids to suffer for it. That's the biggest deal in our relationship. Her well-being is bound to the well-being of the kids. There's no way to tax her without them being affected. Me, if I don't get sex, what do my kids care about that?
Impulsiveness has a lot to do with spender psychology. I'm not totally immune, but I am better than my wife. She wants what she wants, and she doesn't want to wait for it. If it's something she doesn't want, then she can put it off indefinitely, like paying certain bills. Or having sex. But once she wants something and gets it in her head, she becomes consumed by it. She can't live with out it. And it must be NOW!
I want things, but I deliberate much longer. I may still give in to it, but I usually take more time deciding. Once I decide, that's pretty much it. I'm pretty slow to reconsider. Which is why Arwyn is better off not pushing me on such thinks. Forcing me to decide in the moment will almost always result in a "NO." Which doesn't always stop her.
But we did manage to survive the toughest part of the year without charging any more or taking out any new loans or credit. Arwyn, despite impulsiveness, has a vague sense of what I'm trying to do. She really seems to be mostly supportive until something captures her attention and she loses her mind. But she is making some effort. If she gets a new car into her head, it will be on, again.
Usually our tax refund gets consumed into some sort of abyss and this year will not be much different. Except I'm throwing it all at the debt. That 27% interest is killing us. It's not the smallest debt on the list, but that interest is simply too high to put off any more. I don't like not having options, and that's what debt does. I robs people of options and opportunities. You buy shit you don't need with money you don't have, and you pay a heavy price for it. At least the Capital One card is history. They recently changed their policy to one where if you are EVER 4 days late on your payment, the default rate goes to 25% automatically. In addition to the late fee. I'm sure other credit cards are jumping all over this.
I see a few other folks have too much month at the end of the money. Desperate Husband is still fighting the good fight and look towards a brighter financial outlook for 2006. And he has shattered my 103 day No Sex record. DH, I salute you!
Confused Husband also wrote a bit about having a checking account gasping for air. Only I'm not sure who the spender or saver is in his household.
......
While writing this, I just had a conversation with Arwyn while she was getting ready to take a shower. no panties, just a sweatshirt she kept pulling down. Teasing me. The topic of the conversation was mundane (vaccinations) but she had my undivided and rapt attention. I can just look at the woman and love her.
D.
posted by Digger Jones @ 11:35 AM 3 comments
Friday, January 27, 2006
I'm Becoming an Orc
01/26/2006
It's been hard to find time to blog with RL work getting in the way. And the absence of material to move tbimgs along. At least until yesterday.
Last time, I was it a spot where not having sex okay. To be sure, with work stress and age and whatever else is going on, my sex drive has been in decline. I get sick of reading and writing about it all the time. I get sick of being resentful about it. I get sick and tired of being sick and tired about it.
But yesterday morning, I woke up very horny! I had a raging hard-on. I actually thought about getting myself off. Arwyn was waking early enough so I inverted to snuggle her and hold her a bit. And we talked. I finally asked hher if she could use her hands on me and she said okay. Got the towel and it took all of about 45 seconds for her to stroke me off. I said that it was nice, and said that we needed some serious naked time and she agreed and said this weekend might be okay. Hey, so far so good! Right?
Fast forward to the evening.
Because I was hankering for an escape, I hooked up the headphones and watched The Two Towers. Arwyn was busily doing some work for her preschool lesson, cutting stuff out. She is foreverr cutting stuff out. She had earlier complained about how tired she was, and despite having the day off today where both boys would be in school, persisted late into the evening. About midnight, the real theatrics began. Just as the Ents were going to war. Just as Theodin and Aragorn were making their last ride. Just as Frodo was facing down a Nazgul...
The setting event for this was a rent check that arrived in the mail. Our renter is still two months behind after paying this installment. Arwyn was hankering to get her hands on that money. I told her NO as I was paying down the Target Visa that she had maxed out and we're paying the default rate of 27% thanks to her own being 2 months late before even telling me about it. The agreement was that I would pay the Visa but would also get the rent check when it came. She eventually gave me the check and I filled out a deposit slip and put it in our mailbox to go to the bank along with another check we had. 5 days and it would be in our account. Friday I would have money directly deposited from my paycheck. We are living on the vestiges of a paycheck that arrived before Christmas.
So she is working and I'm enjoying my movie. She comes back from checking on our youngest and says she needs to get him some medicine because he is congested. Allergy medicine that if I could spell Singulair I would tell you what it was. She dais she needed $30...NOW. I took off my headphones and reminded her that I would get paid Friday. 36 more hours, and she could get it. She hasn't given it to home in 3 weeks because she was broke despite all the Christmas money her dad gave her. So he has been doing fine until now. Until Arwyn saw we had a check. A check she wanted. I told her we would wait. Then she went off on how she desperately needed this medicine as Elmo was wheezing and she didn't want him to have to go to the hospital or DIE.
WTF?
Pablo.
¿me sirve de comentario que mi vagabundo hable con el tuyo?
Para ello recurro a un flash del 7º dia
" adoro tu alma nomáda
vagarás por la urbe
para comletar el juego de fragancias
de tu infancia
vestirás tu mirada de azul verdoso
y tu alma encontrará la plenitud
porque ella
vendrá al caer el alba
con el rocío
porque yo soy ella..."
besitos
Uff Pablo..el trabajito que te has tomado para que yo no entienda nada ni con ayuda de un traductor..en fin mas suerte la próxima vez!..Noc_
Susurros todo vale incluso las conversaciones
entre vagabundos... entre bohemios de una misma especie...Noc_
Ya lo sabes... me encanta tu forma de escribir... me encanta el modo en que transmiten tus palabras... el orden que les das...
En este caso no es menos...
Un beso Noc_
P.D: Gracias por echarme de menos !!
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SI FUERA...
Si fuera un día de la semana: Cualquier noche de cualquier día...
Si fuera un momento del día: Ese mometo el que el día
dice adios y la luna saluda.
Si fuera una canción: Di que si. (Abigail)
Si fuera una parte del cuerpo: Los ojos.
Si fuera una asignatura: Educacion fisica o musica.
Si fuera un color: Azul o granate.
Si fuera un dolor: La tristeza.
Si fuera un verbo: Escuchar,oir, ver, observar.
Si fuera una prenda: Una mifalda.
Si fuera un libro: La isla de las tres sirenas ( Irvin Vallace).
Si fuera un país: España.
Si fuera un lugar: La mar.
Si fuera un mito: Greta Garbo.
Definirme como una persona normal y corriente seria fácil justificable y aplastante, teóricamente. Que los demás me vean igual resultaría difícil, complicado y absurdo.. porque siempre intento estar por encima de mis posibilidades, los limites los marca la propia incultura, lo no vivido, aun así lucho contra ello a diario, me empapo con vivencias que cuentan con reflexiones que se hacen y me transmiten, intento comprender puntos de vista, Esta obra está bajo una
que no siempre comparto.
En ocasiones contesto mentalmente sin escribir ni una sola palabra a algún texto que anda por la coctelera y lo justifico aun a sabiendas que no hay justificación posible para lo irracional,
para la arbitrariedad.
adopta tú mascota!
Consígueme algo
para soñar
porque así se supone
que estaré dormida
Se que mis ropas
no esconden mis te quiero
cuando me miras y
me vistes de silencios
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Selene dijo
"te siento y pienso constante, sin motivo ni argumento..." ¿a quién no nos pasa?
Corto pero intenso... delicioso.
Un besito!
31 Enero 2006 | 01:16 AM